dream catcher

dream catcher

does my past have the ability to steal my dream? ...or to shape it? ...or maybe my past is just my past.


my life is happening now, and i am reminded that RIGHT now is the only now there is!

RIGHT now i am in the luxury of sheer joy at being back here : with you ... it is true that i have missed you. ...so thank you again for being here.

over the last couple of months, i've begun anticipating the arrival of my own dream, and i've got to tell you, it's pretty exciting!

the story of life happening NOW is the only story there is. it's precise, it's non-negotiable, it simply is. the story of catching my own dream is the story i write with every single NOW there is. it is only mine to CREATE!

into the story of 'happening now' brings every experience we've ever had, every thought we've ever thunk, every dream we've ever dared, every beauty we've ever witnessed, and every single breath we've ever taken. the indelible lesson here is no matter what, somehow we've made it past all the other bazillion now's we've had, and hopefully learned a thing or two about (and from) some of them. we then (hopefully) carry those things with us bravely into this very now, and create this very now into something that looks like where we want to be, as in 'just be.'

a key lesson (for me) was learning that it's okay to want what you want, so long as there is gratitude for what you have. the universe doesn't ask for us to sacrifice our desires for their fulfillment, although if your desire is to rob a bank or other such nonsense, it's not smart, but that too is within the realm of possibility (caveat : man's rules dictate that you will be caught, and you will pay restitution to humanity - spirit says thou shalt not steal, so you do the math there. you received the robbery specifically because you requested to rob a bank.). the universe works on thought, not on words or degrees of good or bad  ... it's up to each of us to discern our own best life, and then to live it.

i learned a while back to see what i'm looking at. more recently i learned that evidence is available for whatever i want (choose) to see.

this is why it is in everyone's best interest to seek the good in ourselves and in others : because expectation is perception, and perception creates reality. we are gifted the remarkable ability to see exactly what we want to see, regardless of what is actually in front of us.



the rest of the story is about the absolute certainty within the words between the words.

my personal journey is about creating my own way in this world with unfettered ability, and with unbridled joy.

how do we move beyond a feeling of inadequacy? there is no doubt but that our myriad of choices about how we perceive our own lives creates the one we're living. we can choose to create the 'one' we want and set about giving it all the attributes we'd like to find there, and indeed we must(!). i do believe it's more than just creating it in mind : certain action must follow, nonetheless, the expression goes : creation happens first in mind.

... as in, this is the place to go when motivation is hard, when life is showing its teeth, time is unavailable, there isn't anything to say (because it's all so rotten?), my viewpoint is unimportant, nobody likes it anyway, etc. ...

in these moments i must really think about what it is i am creating : MY OWN LIFE!


i bring myself around eventually, by my own will to do so, and realize that

what i seek is seeking me :
it's up to me to seek!

the rest of the expression comes from desire in self : where the mind's eye becomes adept at placing one's very own self within the (limitless?) boundaries of one's very own envisioned 'one.'

i've chosen a trajectory, and chosen the guidance and grace to go there : and also asked for them.

how, then, is it that the dream i ~seem to be~ bringing is someone else's? now that i've said that, it occurs to me that this other person's dream may very well be my own next step ... and as this is what is happening, it must be according to divine plan. i fought it for a number of years, and now that i have begun to (willingly) go with it, i feel myself moving forward, again. i'm still not sure what it has to do with my own vision, but i am very sure that i am progressing. my life is interesting, and i have the most noble gifts of great love and much joy. this small thing has been a lifetime of learning : resisting, evaluating, shifting, moving, resting, experiencing, living.

now i'm in search of resistance ... what am i resisting about my own next : while i perceive myself in headlong, steady progress, my timeline is shrinking, and i wonder if the universe's idea of my 'one' is somehow 'different' than my perception of 'one?' i also know the universe has its own time-line, and i am one-in-7.5-billion humans.

this, in no way, contradicts my idea of the 'one,' and i'm very grateful. even though i am but a cell in the body of the cosmos, my contribution is necessary, and i came here with a job to do within the creation of perfect unfoldment. i know that my dream wants me too. occasionally just knowing i have done the work of formulating the 'one' in my own mind's eye is enough . joy is possible, even in a small measure, for the feeling of accomplishment the vision brings.

...which brings me to the next resistance i wonder about ... rumi says that when you set out on the path, the path appears. how do i release the fear i have for being 'found out?' what if the people who i've harmed (inadvertently and not) in my journey find out that now i'm living my dream, which involves all of humanity ... and i realize that there are some conundrums that may only work themselves out how they will, and my dream involves the work of universal alignment in my self.

... and life will go on, no matter what ... and i don't have to destroy anything ... and the 'one' wants me too ... and ... and ... and.  ... and then there's this :

what you seek      the universe is conspiring           you become    
is seeking you.              in your favor.            what you think about.

the questions are:

what is it you seek?

does the universe have your back?

what are you thinking about?

the very interesting thing is that there is no one qualified to tell me the answers, except me. therefore,

• i look to what i seek to know what is seeking me.
• i look at (and expand) the ways in which i am blessed to allow more blessings.
• i consciously check in on my thoughts, just in case they're leading away from my dream.

... sometimes life gives me lemons, sometimes i get lemonade : sometimes i give myself permission to learn to make my own lemonade ... which is (actually) the best, most satisfying thirst quencher.

thanks for being here : i appreciate your time, and look forward to seeing you here again.

namaste

maya

* this post is dedicated to ratna elizabeth in indonesia. thank you, ratna.